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Schedule Your Grief

There’s Plenty of Time to be Sad

Written by Wendy Keller, mother, author and survivor

Have you ever been having an “OK” day when the memory of something painful just comes up and whacks you on the back of the head? Have you ever been unexpectedly felled by seeing someone or something that reminds you of your pain, your trauma, your loss, your grief?

This is a universal human experience after a “trigger incident” – the divorce, death or other trauma that started your pain. Thankfully, the frequency of those unexpected, punched-in-the-gut events typically begins to subside after a few years. But in the meantime, most people are vulnerable to being broadsided by their emotions on the road to recovery. They never know when they will next be debilitated by a painful and unexpected episode of anguish. It can happen at work, while driving, while trying to tend a loved one.

It doesn’t have to be like this.

3VRYYGCQ05One of the most important things you can do for yourself if you find yourself burdened by unexpected recurrences of suffering is this: schedule your grief. When both my young children died in a car accident in 1991, I was certain if I fully gave in to my emotions I would never stop crying. I’d just cry and cry for the rest of my life.

My friend Lora, who had lost her son to SIDS just a few months before, told me her best advice for beginning to control the uncontrollable: schedule the grief. She said, “Dare yourself to go thirty seconds without crying.” Since I was lying in a hospital bed in considerable pain physically and emotionally, I had little else to do but stare at the slow-moving hands of the clock. I took the dare.

After a few days, I was able to go thirty seconds. After a few weeks, I could go five minutes. A year later, I could go a few hours straight on occasion.

People sometimes say, “Oh, what’s happened to me is nothing like what happened to you!” But the truth is, if you are suffering then your pain is as painful for you as my pain was for me. Pain cannot be counted, measured, compared. If you’re hurting, and if unexpected recurrences of pain are disrupting your ability to function, sleep, love or live, then you really must try this step.

People who successfully manage their emotions allow them to be fully expressed – sometimes. They don’t deny them but neither are they victims to their whimsical comings and goings. For instance, many men have been acculturated to believe that showing emotion is a sign of weakness. For them in particular, and for women, too, learning to schedule grief can be a quantum leap in recovery from loss, pain or trauma. The emotions are getting processed but they are no longer in control. They are not being suppressed, they are being directed.

So how does one “schedule grief?” It’s a trick of the mind and the calendar, really. You tell yourself, “I am going to be free, alone and available to really feel what I’m feeling next Saturday afternoon between 4 PM and 6 PM. I choose to suffer, grieve, express rage, anger, tears, fury, sadness, deep depression – whatever it is – during that time.” Then, when incidents happen during the week that trigger an emotional reaction, you catch yourself before it engulfs you and say, “I choose to feel this pain on Saturday from 4-6 PM, not now. I need/want to function in my life now.”

When the appointed time to suffer arises, go ahead and feel it fully. Cry, use a whole box of tissues, beat up the pillow, scream, do whatever you need to do. Allow yourself to exorcise your pain fully. You’ll know when it’s been used up. Think of the instances that made you want to break down that you diverted until now. Perhaps you saw a happy old couple holding hands, or a mother kissing her child’s forehead. Perhaps a friend told you about a call she got from her loving, healthy parent or someone at work got the big promotion you thought would be yours. Let yourself reflect, wallow and succumb. Be fully there. When your time is up or your pain is emptied, whichever comes first, get up. Change your physiology: take a shower, wash your face, go for a brisk walk, get around other people – whatever you need to do to “close” this session. And take a moment to schedule the next.

By learning to “compartmentalize” your pain, you begin to recognize that your mind is in charge of your emotional reactions. With practice, the skill of scheduling your grief fosters a sense of confidence that you are not at the mercy of the event that triggered your pain. You train yourself that emotions are a normal, healthy, human response to suffering, and that you can determine when to experience them.

One word of caution: there will still be times when you are blindsided by pain. Sometimes, especially when you are tired or overwhelmed, something will trigger a memory and your heart, mind and mood will spiral downward faster than you can catch them. If you do not have the next grief session scheduled, even if it is six months away, you will find that you have a harder time catching yourself and stabilizing again.

When you stabilize and your brain begins the inevitable process of functioning again, emerge and set a time with yourself to feel the pain fully.

By learning to schedule your grief, you force yourself out of the victim mode and begin to take positive, strong, healthy steps toward incorporating your pain into your life, learning its lessons and moving forward into joy and peace again.

 


 

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Wendy Keller, author

Wendy Keller writes and speaks about healing, inner strength and surviving. People have applauded, thankful and blessed by her hourlong webinars. Check out the schedule and join them here: Stop Hurting and Start Healing

Check out Wendy’s newest book :  When “I Do” Becomes “I Don’t”: How to Heal from Divorce

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Posted on June 15, 2015, in Quotes. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.

  1. Wise words. I’ve lost 2 sisters, a younger brother, a young niece, and my infant son and only child; and that’s only my immediate family. I’ve always refused to schedule my grief – meaning that just because it was a holiday or birthday or some other especially meaningful day, I wouldn’t let it destroy me; rather than stay home and drown in my sorrow, I would plan something enjoyable or peaceful or healing for that day. Rather than be overcome with the loss of someone, I would try to honor their life. I think delaying grief can be useful when the loss is more distant and one has some time to recover from their reeling, but in the immediate months and first few years following a loss, it’s important to be “mindful- in the moment” and feel our pain, because the grief can be just too large to be dismissed or delayed until a later time. I agree with your point of not letting our emotions take control of us….that is an important message and word of advice. I took too much comfort in mine for way too long and clung to it like it was all I had left. Of course it wasn’t. And I lost years of living in my own life. Maybe we need to be gently taught at an earlier age, that these losses are NOT the exception, but are a regular part of life that need to be expected. Not only would these things SLAM us less, but maybe…just maybe, we would learn to value each single day as the precious thing that it is. Thank you for another meaningful, wise, and thought-provoking post. xojulia

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